January 12th - 6 years nappy!!
The 12th was my 6 year nappiversary. Felt kinda strange actually, for nappiversaries 1-5 I had locs, this time I don't. The other day, my boyfriend told me that he missed my locs, each and every one of them. I don't know...it helps that Bri has locs, at least there is one locked head in my house-I miss them, but I don't want them back. I guess I realized that my locs were just going to get longer and longer and longer. And heavier and heavier and heavier. Bri's locs are now 1 year old, she's getting bored with the teenage stage though, she can't wait for them to grow.
To answer a few questions: Aleeka, I've never tried the Baka Naturalaxer, but G. (thanks, G.) provided me with a link of pics from a woman that has used the Naturalaxer a few times. Her hair looks good, I'm just scared of any product with the suffix -laxer. And the sulfur mix that I made up contained 1-2 tablespoons of sulfur powder and I may have overdone it, I can definitely feel a warm tingly feeling when I apply it to my scalp.
I had a nappy breakthrough the other day. I've been wearing my hair in about 8 braids for the past two weeks. Normally, I wear a hat outside, since it's been so cold but the other day, we were late leaving the house for school and I forgot to put my hat on. After I dropped the kids off, I realized that I needed to stop by Target, but I was hesitant to do so because of my hair. Don't get me wrong, the braids are neat, it's just that there are only 8 of them. But I HAD to go to the store (we were on our last roll of toilet paper. I know that's probably too much info, but it explains the urgency of my dilemma). Before I got out of the car, I searched the backseat for an abandoned hat. I wished I would have worn a hoodie. I had on sweats, a 10-year-old pair of sketchers, 8 little nappy braids and an economy size package of Charmin under one arm. It was 8 in the morning and I was in Target ducking and dodging like I was going to be ambushed for one of those makeover shows.
I've been referring to those braids as my "Celie's" and I think this is where the problem is. Obviously, 
Celie didn't have time to style her hair, with all the time she spent taking care of Mr. "The kitchen need a cleaning, cow need a milking, shirt need a mending"--let me quit. What if I was transferring some of the low-self image/unattractive beliefs about Celie's hair onto my own 8 braids? I mean, my braids were neat, freshly done, clean, all that. I was just uncomfortable walking around looking "like a slave" and then I was uncomfortable because I realized that I was tripping about going into Target to get something that my family needed just because of my hair. It's one thing to be in my car with my hair styled like this, but another thing to be out in public and have people give you that look. As a nappy in a relatively perm and weave saturated area, I'm used to that look, but most of the time I think my hair is fly so I don't give a damn. This time, I cared because I didn't have the self-confidence to back it up. I couldn't "rock that natural" with the "Celies." And I think that's a problem.
